How I’m starting to combat letting my idolised self take over my life

I’ve talked to you about the highs of being a rainbow potato (which, if you haven’t seen my YouTube branding is basically what I’ve dubbed myself – I’m not sure why but it just fits) but I wanted to talk to you a little bit today about being afraid to start something.

All my life I’ve put off things. Usually, I’ll be honest it’s I’ll do this when I’ve lost weight… I’ll do this when my hair looks better… I’ll do this when I have nicer clothes… Essentially a lot of the time I live my life based on how I think my appearance is and this is something I’ve been fighting really hard to combat recently.

This week I posted what I thought was an unflattering photograph on Instagram. I loved my outfit and the shot but would never usually post because it did not paint what I thought was a flattering impression of my body. I decided to post it anyway. That however didn’t end the constant feelings of worry that people could see the image. All I could think about was what would people think?! The reason I posted it and fought with myself to keep it up as I wanted in a small, strange way to help people like me who feel like they can only post on social media or live life when they felt like they fit a desired standard. Life goes on day by day and actually the only way I’ve seen positive changes to myself in the past has been through grasping life (bizarrely enough, ha, ha) rather than letting it pass me by.

Now I’m not saying you have to pose incredibly unflattering images of yourself but what I’m saying is don’t be afraid to take the picture, write the blog post or film the YouTube video if that’s what you want to do.

I still am very guilty of not doing something or making myself feel like I can’t do anything because I’m not where I want to be, which consequently makes me feel like I’m trapped. To be honest I felt a little trapped in my content recently, as I felt it had become too focused on posts that were easier for me to think through – i.e. hauls or favourites posts. Don’t get me wrong these posts still take work but it’s a different kind of work then say book reviews or personal posts like this one.

After letting myself float along with this for a little I decided to take action this week and get to writing some more book reviews again because I did really enjoy those posts and losing myself in reading again. So I’m going to buy a few books and try and diverse my content a little bit again. I’ve already had some great recommendations through my Instagram but if you have any let me know in the comments below.

I guess what I’m trying to see is that I know what it’s like to spend all of your time fantasying about being a certain ideal instead of living your life but living your life might just put you on the path to being a little more like your ideal (because let’s face it you’ll never be 100% there).

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Ten pastel fashion instagram accounts to inspire you this summer

I’ll begin with a confession that not all of the people on this list wear exclusively pastel all of the time but all of them always look amazing (in my humble opinion) and the looks I will be featuring all will be including a pastel element. Summer may have come briefly and then dramatically left the United Kingdom (and now it feels extra cold and I don’t mind it but I’m now just constantly in fear and don’t know what to wear); but it still (apparently) is getting close to summertime so I wanted to showcase some summery looks.

  1. Noodlerella 

When the sun did hit I was feeling everything soft and pastel so Connie aka Noodlerella’s Instagram was a great source of inspiration. From her pink beret in the below picture (I have a strong obsession with all berets) to the soft sheer sleeved top (which, is another top trend I’m loving at the moment); I love everything about this look.

If you’re inspired by this look I’d suggest checking out this pink Hello Kitty x Asos beret, or this plain soft pink Asos option. If it’s something sheer and lilac that you’re after I suggest this Lazy Oaf basics lilac sheer turtleneck I’ve been coveting or this sold out H and M mesh blouse pale blue blouse (including only because it wasn’t sold out last time I checked so they may still have some in stores).

Skirt wise, I would recommend this Lazy Oaf Check Kilty Skirt option but it’s sold out (though they might have some instore if you can travel to London) though if you type in check tennis skirt into google you’ll probably be able to find a few great alternatives like this Yesstyle option. Vintage shops like Rokit in London are also a great place you could try and it’s better for the environment!

2. Pixielocks 

I’ll start by saying that I know the two below images are taken from her side account. Her main Instagram account is Pixielocks but I love these two beret looks so I had to post them. I also NEED to know where that lilac gingham dress(?) is from as that with the sheer white polka dot top is a LOOK. The two berets she is wearing are from Just Peachy who I actually mentioned in my last post. They are both sold out, however, the owner of the shop has just returned from Tokyo so I’m hoping they will come back in stock soon.

This filter is the only one that matters and I refuse to accept otherwise

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I especially love these looks because I like how Pixielocks has matched her eyeshadow with the beret in the first look. I think I could create a similar look with my Juvia’s Place palette (The Magic Palette) that I got as a gift from my friend Callie but you could also probably create something similar with the Love You So Mochi Eyeshadow palette (which, I need).

3. Pretty Pastel Please 

I have recently discovered this Instagram account from her Youtube channel and I obsessed with her great videos as well as all the style inspiration she provides. I particularly really love this Missguided number that is actually only £10 on the website right now. I keep looking it again and again but don’t think I’d be able to pull it off as well!

4. JasmineBlu

I don’t usually find someone who shares my first name so I get weirdly protective of my name when I do. However, her style is just so cute that I will forgive it (ha, ha). This April recently went to Tokyo and I was simultaneously living through her beautiful snaps and getting more and more enraged about how cute they were! She is also the owner of Just Peachy, which unfortunately for me means she’s definitely cooler than me.

ooh my gOSHHHH :o) I finally got to try the huge rainbow cotton candy !!!

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i’m a lil teapot ♡✧( ु•⌄• )

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5. Simply Kenna

Simply Kenna is another person I follow on Instagram that has recently visited Japan and consequently made me ridiculously jealous in the process. There was a lot of SCANDAL surrounding Kenna as a Youtuber a while ago (it’s not that hard to find through typing into YouTube). Honestly, I’m not sure where I stand on the situation. I follow Kenna for her style and aesthetic and have never followed her obsessively. I definitely think she didn’t behave well in the past but she has made comments that suggest she is growing recently and I think as long as she doesn’t make similar mistakes again and grows from the experience then that’s all we can hope for.

6. Emma Roberts

Ok, so this look isn’t pastel like at all (yes, I lied at the start). However, it is soft and chic and I love it. I’ve loved Emma Roberts style for a while, as she always manages to put little twists on classic ensembles that never fail to catch my eye. I will attempt to channel a bit of this the summer but I will probably end up coming out as a rainbow potato (which, is forever my aesthetic).

Girl tries to be cute with coffee. Girl spills coffee on new white dress.

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This is just a bonus look as I saw it and couldn’t not include it even though it doesn’t fit this post at all!

7. Kiera Please

I originally started following Kiera Please for her awesome casual cosplays and over time after seeing more and more of her posts I just get more and more upset over how beautiful she is. These three looks are relatively simply but there is something about her that just means anything she wears look awesome. I especially love the pink Barbie look and I’d recommend checking out Missguided’s Barbie Collection if you want to take inspiration from her look.

question of the day: is a hotdog a sandwich?

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8. Pretty Star Laura

Laura for me is the queen of prints and pastel. I love the way she mixes bold prints with pastel in a way I’ve not seen anyone else do quite in the same way. Her pink fluffy cotton pink hair is also to die for. Be sure to check out her Instagram if you own anything pastel and are not sure how to style it.

Why is it only 11am and I already need a nap?

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9. Studiomucci 

I very recently discovered this Instagram but I am already OBSESSED. All her outfits are pastel gold and I love how her eyeshadow always pops with her outfits – until recently I’ve always been a little afraid to wear the same colour eyeshadow exactly (or a very close shade) to my outfit but Amina looks ridiculously cute doing so.

10. Kawaiipeachqueen 

The below look is so cute I CAN’T EVEN SPEAK. Also, because I have the same bag I  I need to take inspiration from this outfit at some point but I don’t think I’d rock the scrunchies anywhere near as well. Since I also have the cardigan in the bottom picture I’ve basically decided we are now style twins (ha, ha).

🌸✨🍓かわいい🍓✨🌸 This summer is about accepting my curves and embracing body positivity. So with that I'm going to try a slight mixture of🌙Pastel🌙⭐️Fairy Kei⭐️ and ✨Harajuku✨ Fashion. The people that wear this type of fashion express confidence🍬I hope to show all curvy girls that you aren't limited clothing wise because of your size.🍙 Also that you don't have a limit to what you can love🍙(🍯Mine is Video games and Anime🍯)Also I'm just a beginner in the fashion don't shame me (● ˃̶͈̀ロ˂̶͈́)੭ꠥ⁾⁾ Plus I feel like a cute bee today 🐝✨🍯 ありがとうございます🌈 P.S. the pink skirt and sailor moon purse are from @spreepicky 🌟#spreepicky #dianapurse #sailormoonwallet #sailormoon #pastelprincess #honeybee #kawaii #fairykei #harajuku #sailormoondiana #buns #cute #cutenessoverload #pastelpink #curvygirl #kawaiiqueen #Lolita #weaboo

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So there we have it some of my favourite Instagram accounts to look at when I need a bit of style inspiration. I’d also recommend checking out Miley Cyrus’s Instagram who I wish I could have included here but wanted to keep this post to a relatively snappy ten, as well as Kelly Eden. Also, I am in LOVE with the new Converse x Miley Cyrus collection. I’m considering asking for the pair below for my birthday but can’t decide between them and two other pairs in the collection.

If you’ve got any more pastel fashion Instagram accounts or just general fashion Instagram accounts you think I should follow let me know in the comments below.

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