“APRIL is the cruellest month, breeding
Lilacs out of the dead land, mixing
Memory and desire, stirring
Dull roots with spring rain.
Winter kept us warm, covering
Earth in forgetful snow, feeding
A little life with dried tubers.”
-T.S. Eliot, from ‘The Waste Land’
So, to get it out the way I thought I’d start by explaining the name of my blog, hence the above passage from ‘The Waste Land’. Calling yourself the cruellest month may be a bit of a weird way to describe yourself, but when I was try to think of blog names it just clicked with me. I think it described the attitude I wanted to come across in my work, and that is not that I am going to be cruel (or ever want to be), but that I am not going to take things lying down. I am going to dare to talk about the things that would make me a ‘nasty woman’ to some people. A scary thought considering the social media backlash women constantly face online. However, I’m determined to summon my inner Gryffindor (though l’m still undecided if I am a Ravenclaw or Gryffindor) and see it through.
Also, I feel the title is appropriate because at the moment everyone feels a little bit like they are in April right now. A lot of us are in a lot of pain because of events that have happened recently in the world, be that be Donald Trump becoming President of the United States, Brexit or the devastating tragedies in Aleppo. Everyone is feeling, and thinking, but mixed in is a lot of pain. In one way I think we all want to go back to ‘winter’, and a time when a lot of us were not as engaged in global events because then at least we weren’t hurting, as we were more unaware of the pain everyone was going through.
However, let’s face the times- there is no going back now. We can either let ourselves be overwhelmed by the constant amount of news we are faced with, or we can try our best to swift through (and take a deeper look at what is presented to us). I have often felt like nothing I will do will make a difference. Maybe, in a grander sense that’s true, but I am not going to stop trying.
It’s this new fight that has risen in me that inspires me to write. To try and make a difference. For a long time I’ve been scared to say what I think. Scared to offend. Scared I wasn’t intellectual enough. Scared I wasn’t good enough.
But no more.
So this is my space, where I will share with you the things I’ve noticed, things I believe in, and all the things I hope to learn.
I hope we can learn together.