Disney inspired beret haul + lookbook

Anyone who knows me moderately well knows that I love all things Disney and I especially love incorporating things from pop culture that I love into my style. Hence, my love for all collection where Lazy Oaf has collaborated with well known icons. Therefore, when I first discovered the shop Just Peachy I fell in love. Especially, with the berets because I think a distinguishing feature of my style that year most people will agree is probably the beret.

However, I am not the only one to love and covet these berets, which is why one of them before now had been sold out for a while (and is sadly sold out again). It is also why I got super excited when they restocked – I’d also like to mention the shipping from America was fairly quick (and the tracking super spot on) – I didn’t get hit by customs either which is definitely a bonus.

I’ll start by reviewing the beret, which is still available and started my obsession with Just Peachy’s shop! This beret is $20.00 (I’m not sure how much that is in pounds but overall for both berets and shipping I think it came to £36 and since the parcel came from America that isn’t bad). It’s lovely quality and looks exactly like the photograph. My one fault with this beret is that it is very large and so struggles to stay on my head (and this isn’t an issue with the other beret I bought).

So without further ado I introduce the Donald Duck inspired Beret:

Look 1

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Beret: Just Peachy

Top: Topshop (Old) 

Trousers: Lazy Oaf x Hello Kitty 

Shoes: Primark 

The back of the beret has Donald Duck’s little tail and is super cute – it also has a ribbon coming out the back in an adorable sailor style.

Donald Duck Beret Back

Unfortunately, however when you look at the back you can also see how the beret is a bit too big for my headshape (which, doesn’t happen a lot!). This beret though was most of my friends favourite out of the two I purchased!

The Tangled beret maybe because of its shape (it was a bit wider at the front) suited my headshape a lot more. I also love the colours because I’m behind in the seasons and still stuck in spring fashion mode. I think this would look beautiful with either a white or yellow sundress, specifically this button front midi dress from New Look – which, I am hoping to style it with at some point (but I just can’t afford it at the moment, as I am desperately saving for Comic Con next weekend even though I’m not going Saturday and am devastated that lots of the Arrested Development cast are going to be there and I’m not as can only afford the Friday!!!).

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The above image is the image used on the top of this page (if you’re viewing on a Laptop I apologise for the close up on my face – it looked too nice on the tablet and mobile view to change it because it showed a nice close up of the beret).

This beret was $15.00 so slightly cheaper than the Donald Duck beret and that beret is  probably more expensive because that beret has the extra detailing on the back!

Look 2

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Beret: Just Peachy

Dress: Primark (old) – this Topshop dress is similar, which I’ve actually tried on and I loved it

Shoes: Topshop (old – these shoes are similar but real leather – I’m not sure if mine are as I stole them off my mum)

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Yellow 1

 

Yellow 4

Yellow 5

Beret: Just Peachy (I think this look would also work with the Donald Duck beret but the top cuts off my criculation too much at the arms for me to try it!)

Top: Little Viking Vintage 

Playsuit: H&M (this one is the same one but in pink)

Shoes: Topshop (old – these shoes are similar but real leather – I’m not sure if mine are as I stole them off my mum)

Look 4 

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Esther 4

Esther 3

Beret: Just Peachy

Top: Lazy Oaf x Esther Loves You 

Jacket: Lazy Oaf x Esther Loves You 

Skirt: H & M (old – this New Look skirt is similar)

Shoes: Primark (I would probably style this with a white shoe if I had the choice but currently don’t have any though watch this space!)

This would have looked so great with the Bunnyrees from the Lazy Oaf x Esther Loves You collection – one day I will find them and make them mine!

Look 5

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Beret: Just Peachy

Dress: Olive (this one is similar)

Shoes: Primark 

Look 6 

This look was actually one I tried on in the New Look changing rooms today but I really liked it so I decided to include it. If you like this look it will be featuring on my Instagram story today, as I’m going to be doing a poll where everyone can pick their favourite outfit and whatever gets the most votes I will buy on payday.

New look 1

New look 2

Beret: Just Peachy

Dress: New Look 

Top: New Look

Shoes: Primark 

So here is my Disney inspired beret lookbook. Apologises that I have less looks for the Donald beret then the Tangled beret – I just happen to have more clothes that are in that colour palette!

Let me know in the comments below, which look was your favourite!

April (April is the Cruellest Month)

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National Vegetarian Week: My vegetarian journey

So it’s National Vegetarian Week and Mental Health Awareness Week this week and although I would love to just spend the week doing the below; I thought I’d instead I’d take the opportunity to write some reflective content. As I happen to be a vegetarian and have been for around 7 years now.

And to be honest I think at times being a vegetarian has been a defining moment in my life. Although, it’s just second nature to me that wasn’t always the case so I wanted to talk today about my journey to becoming the overgrown carrot I am today. I knew from around my early teens that I wanted to be a vegetarian. I had weighed it up in my head and it made no sense to me killing something that could obviously feel pain – I also didn’t see the separation between pets and the animals we eat. This by the way is not to attack anyone who eats meat (I don’t believe that ‘converts’ anyone) but just how I feel on the matter.

My first few attempts were quite disastrous. I found a bit more success with being a pescatarian (eating fish but not meat), as it wasn’t meat I was particularly upset about not eating – I only really loved the taste of tuna. However, eventually when I reached about 16 something clicked into place – I learnt more how to make vegetarian options that actually tasted nice and where and what the good substitutes were. So for anyone wanting to be vegetarian at the moment but is finding it difficult; remember never to give up.

My transition was quite a long time ago so honestly I can’t remember a lot of it! All I know is that I don’t actually remember fully what meat tastes like that, the only ‘meat’ products I occasionally miss are things like haribo and jelly babies which contain gelatine. That list also did used to include milkybar yoghurts but they now have brought out a yoghurt which is VERY similar to their dessert pots (just smaller), which has revolutionised my life.

Since my transition was so long ago I wanted to talk to Martin who became a vegetarian 3 years ago about how he found it. As I remember before he became a vegetarian he had one last Nando’s and ate a whole chicken to himself + sides (it was his birthday and I have to salute his commitment). I think a lot of people thought he became vegetarian because I’m a veggie but honestly if the way I described his Nando’s feast doesn’t clue you in; I never cared if he was a vegetarian or not. I mean, I’m glad because it makes food shopping easier but it definitely was not a ‘deal breaker’ in any way shape or form. He just decided he wanted to join me.

So let’s ask Martin about his experience, which is not going to go well as he is a person of little words. I first asked him how he found the transition and whether it was hard – he said he didn’t find it hard at all. I personally think this was because I told him where all the good veggie food was even if he won’t admit it. I’d also like to point out that he kind of transitioned by eating fish in the first few months (though literally only a few times). I then asked if there was anything he missed knowing full well the answer would be fried chicken (specifically the spices) but he has quorn so he copes – he in fact said he misses having choice, he can’t just go out and get to burger, he has to go to London (specifically here here he means Temple of Seitan).

When he said that I had to laugh though as he doesn’t know my struggle. Vegetarian (and vegan!!!) options have got so much better in the last few years. From supermarket options to eating out options. I now can go to any place and expect them for the most part to have a vegetarian option – that vegan counterpart is lagging still a bit behind but it’s getting there. I think it’s more accessible (and easier to find recipes for) good vegan food as well, which I try to supplement into my diet whenever possible. I love a good cashew Mac and Cheese (don’t tell anyone but the regular version can be a bit too rich for me), as it’s healthier so I can have more sauce but tastes delicious too.

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The recipe for this Mac and Cheese is from Cheap Lazy Vegan who I’d definitely recommend you check out, as her handle definitely describes her channel. All of her recipes that I’ve tried have also been delicious.

I’d also recommend the vegan recipes on Tasty specifically the amazing Tofu breakfast sandwich in the below video, which is amazing!

I also have tried a few recipes from Lucy Watson’s Feed Me Vegan cookbook and I’d definitely recommend her cauliflower ‘wings’ recipe. Not as a chicken wing substitute but something that is tasty all on its own.

I try vegetarian and vegan restaurants or options whenever I can and will either post them on my Instagram feed or story so if you want the low down of some of my favourite places to eat be sure to check me out there.

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It’s easier than ever to find quick, cheap vegetarian or vegan recipes so I think we are now in the setting where it so much easier for people to become vegetarian or vegan, which explains why so many more people are.

I do think at the same time it’s important not to judge. I have not fully committed to being vegan but I try to incorporate vegan recipes into my diet as much as possible. I’ve seen people make similar statements and been attacked on social media, which I never think is the way. If someone is trying I don’t know why you would attack, or if the diet didn’t work for someone on a personal reason it’s not your place to say but ‘you’re wrong’ or ‘you weren’t committed enough’. There’s nothing wrong with offering helpful tips but I don’t think yelling at someone changes their mind – offering them support might do though.

That’s what I think I’ve learnt being a vegetarian in the last few years as vegetarianism and veganism have been talked about more and more. No one will ever be perfect, so just be honest, try to do your research where possible (i.e. if items are cruelty free). You don’t have to be 100% perfect and polished, you can change things gradually. I’m forever learning new things and exploring different options.

If you want to be vegetarian that’s great – if you want a comprehensive guide to the best options you know how to message!

April (April is the Cruellest Month)

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Mental Health Awareness Week: How birth control affected my mental health

I hesitated writing this post for a lot of reasons but not least that I don’t want this post to feel like it exits only because it’s mental health awareness week this coming week but sometimes moments like ‘mental health awareness week’ force you to have that little bit of courage to speak up.

So today, I want to talk to you about my birth control journey. Birth control is something I’ve always been hesitant to talk to a large audience about because it brings with it connotations and meanings. Although I know I should say ‘who cares’ because I’d advise other people of that; this is a subject I’ve always felt uncomfortable with.

However, I’m going to try to be brave and talk to you a little about birth control and how it affected me. The first birth control I ever went on was the nexplanon implant and I started this in the January of my third year of University (so about 2016). It appealed to me because after the procedure was over, you didn’t have to think about birth control and it lasted for three years. During the time I was on the implant I didn’t have a period, which was also a bonus to me (although I didn’t know 100% this would happen going in though I suspected as such because of how people close to me have described it affecting them).

The procedure itself was quite quick. A lot of people are squeamish about it because it involves you being cut into and I’ll admit I was nervous, as I know someone who wasn’t numbed 100% before it was put in. Luckily, the nurse I had checked and it turns out I wasn’t completely numb so she numbed my arm further. It was a strange feeling, as I felt what the pain should have felt like (like someone is stapling you) but didn’t feel the physical discomfort. Apart from occasionally touching my arm and being surprised when I came across the implant; I largely didn’t notice it was there.

Also, I just wanted to write a quick note about where to get this done. If you look up the nearest sexual health free clinic in your area (looking up ‘sexual health clinic and then your county usually works) you can usually either book an appointment (if you know what you want done this is what I’d recommend) or go into a walk in session and discuss the different options. I would like to note as well this advice is for people in England, I’ve only lived in the UK so I can’t advise for how to access contraception anywhere else in the world.

Before, I begin the next part of my story I think is important to note is that at this point in my life I wasn’t in a great place to start. One of these reasons is that for around 6 months at this point I’d stopped running (consequently I gained a little weight but not an excessive amount – I could still fit in 90% of my clothes). I debated mentioning this at all  but there was another part of my life that affected me that I’m not ready to talk about yet (sorry for teasing but it felt wrong not to mention at all) that meant I was not in a good place to begin with.

I didn’t notice much of a change in my life when I started the implant. In those few months when I started my life was a whirlwind of deadlines, extracurricular activities and work, as I tried desperately to get my life in order. The first thing I noticed was that all of a sudden I put on a lot of weight (disproportionate to the amount I was eating). I could tell I put the weight on fast by the way it looked on my body as well – my body just felt strange.

It took longer to notice how it affected my mood. All my pent up emotions and angst became amplified by 100%. I was angry all the time, hyper emotional. Although, I would describe myself as passionate and maybe of a Hermione in the way I approach my work; I’ve never been one to just react/ snap. I could see myself reacting to things and it was like an out of body experience. I knew my reaction was irrational but I couldn’t stop it happening. The spiral would get worse because in the lucid moments afterwards I’d be so upset about how I’d treated people (and for this I am still truly sorry for).

I knew deep down something had changed in me when I started the implant but I became so scared that if I took it out nothing would change and I was just trapped as this angry person now. It was that fear that stopped me taking it out until 2 years later, as I only removed it early this year. The effect on my mood within just a week after it being removed was ridiculous. It sounds silly but I felt like myself again. I could react like I wanted to. Something else I noticed as well was that my concentration went up and my focus on tasks. It felt like the time before my brain had been wrapped in cotton wool – if I managed to get a Masters when my brain was suffocating – what could I achieve now?!

I also started to notice my weight shifted easier as well. Also, in case anyone is wondering I am on another form of hormonal contraception now in the form of the mini pill (not every mini pill is the same though as there are different brands). It’s only been a couple of weeks, as I gave my body a break before I started anything else because I wanted to make sure I was myself again but I feel a lot better so far. However, I am experiencing an irregular period. Normally, my periods last 7 days and I am on day 9 now (however, I think it’s basically gone now, fingers crossed), if this continues I’ll go to my GP because a 7 day period is bad enough; I don’t think I can cope with much longer.

I accessed the mini pill from Lloyds Pharmacy. You can get this service through the NHS and not pay but I found this method more convenient as the process was quick and easy (and there is a Lloyds Pharmacy literally 2 minutes from where I live). It was also not expensive, as it cost £10.00 for a 3 months supply (and I think you save if you buy a larger supply).

The implant robbed me of a lot the 2 years I let it take over me. And all I can think about now is that I should have taken it out sooner. But I’ve had depressive episodes all throughout my life so I just thought it was a culmination of that. This may have been true in one way but although I’ve felt low since having it removed and unfortunately I probably will again feel low in the future; I have never felt so low as I did in those two years.

I’m not saying don’t go on the implant. Just listen to yourself and your body. If it’s not working try something else. Don’t let yourself think it’s you failing rather than the method itself if it doesn’t work for you.

It took me a long time to remember that I’m a fighter and that I always been someone who tries to do as much as possible (and doesn’t take no for an answer); I hope this post can help someone remember this too. If you suspect your contraception is making you feel low, please, please see if other options are available to you. Hormonal contraception is that is the way you chose is never going to be 100% fun and pleasant but please don’t suffer unnecessarily.

Remember you have the right to demand a break from it as well. For Mental Health Awareness Week that is the big thing I want to stress is trust yourself.

On another note, I know this period can be stressful. It’s great that more people are becoming more aware about mental health issues and have the courage to talk about it but sometimes having lots of voices talking about a subject can be challenging too. I know I find it overwhelming to read about people’s mental health problems sometimes because it hits too close to home. Also, don’t feel like because everyone is talking about their mental health that you have to talk about yours too. There is nothing wrong with sharing something if you feel like it could help someone going through the same thing or if because you feel it will help you to process everything; but you don’t have to share every part of your mental health journey.

Sometimes, sharing doesn’t help. It’s ok to keep it private sometimes. Keeping it private doesn’t mean you are not suffering.

I do not share half of my struggles on here because I am naturally a very private person. It has took me years to get used to social media. As a teenager I barely interacted on the popular sites at the time because sharing things that happened to be seemed so unnatural – my MSN messenger chat game was particularly terrible. Over time I’ve learnt through observing how to communicate more after witnessing how it can help me and how certain bloggers and Youtubers have affected me (for the better). However, there are times like this post where I feel like I can process the pain I went though and I want to talk about it because I wish someone had written something that would have talked about it to me.

So here is me talking to you about how my contraception had a very crappy effect on my mental health. If you’ve had a similar experience please comment below. If you have any questions about my experience I’d be happy to answer them. I’m far from an expert on the subject but I will be honest and try my best!

April (April is the Cruellest Month)

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P.S. My friend Callie’s post made me remember that I should make sure I have resources at the bottom of this post for people who need them – please read her twitter thread as she says it better than me.

Happy National Siblings Day: Why I love having sisters

I’ve been informed by the internet that it is National Siblings Day today. Although, I think this may just be for America; I’m going to write something anyway because I think sometimes we take our siblings for granted!

Luckily, growing up I don’t think I had too many squabbles with my siblings (I think to be honest we all lacked the effort). Most of the memories we share of each other is either of me bossing them around (i.e. most people’s memory of their time with me) or the ridiculous things we got up to, which leads me to the reasons I love having siblings.

The memories 

I don’t think anyone gets your in jokes as much as your siblings do. Although, the tale of my sister getting her head trapped in a table I find hilarious when telling anyone; I’ll admit it doesn’t lead to hysterics as much as it does when told between us. Also, I don’t think you get the full weight of the look my (other sister – they’re twins) sister had on her face when she looked like a mermaid after almost being swept away by the sea unless you were there to witness it.

April and Billie

Helping each other by learning from each others mistakes 

As the oldest sibling I feel like I had the opportunity to make most of the mistakes but they didn’t feel as bad when I realised that at least hopefully my sisters would learn from me and not do the same thing. However, the only downside is that being the oldest also meant I was always the guinea pig in regards to parenting and my sisters got to go into town by themselves and have phones at a younger age than I was.

Billie and Crystal

Sharing information 

I don’t think this is unique to a family of only sisters but personally for me I love that we all have a similar shared experience that we can draw on, i.e. we can all truly sympathise when the other has a painful period.

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My sisters are awesome 

I am so proud of my sisters. They’re awesome, way more stylish than I will ever be and truly independent, sassy, little (in height) women. One of the best parts of having sisters is getting to see them grow up and go through life and continue to get more and more awesome.

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Someone that I can always talk to 

Sometimes for me at least talking to people can require putting in a lot of concentration and effort but when you talk to your siblings you can just be yourself because they already know all the bad/ ridiculous things about you anyway. It’s the same sort of relationship you can also get with your significant other or a close friend however there is that added security that they can’t abandon you because otherwise my mum would yell at them (ha, ha).

They know exactly how to roast you

This might seem like a bad thing to some people but there is something weirdly reassuring about someone knowing you well enough to know exactly how to make fun of your silly moments. The added benefit is you can roast them back as well.

For me however the best thing about having siblings is having someone to gossip with or talk about things you’ve mutually inherited. An added plus is when you can steal each other’s clothes (though I stand by they’ve stolen more of mine than I ever did of theirs).

Also, while you’re here go check out my sister’s art project for her University course: @_we_are_1_ on Instagram and give them a follow! My sister is a great photographer so you won’t be disappointed!

April (April is the Cruellest Month)

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I got a fringe (bangs)!

I was going to write a post about Free Comic Book day for this post but I didn’t realise that it starts as soon as the shop opens on Saturday morning and that there is only limited quantities! Which I know makes sense when you think about it but I am a naive bean. The lady who owns my local comic book shop however was lovely about it and gave me what they had left, which I might still write a little review for.

However, since decided to change my hair in the spur of the moment while at the hairdresser I thought I’d do a post about my new hair. I haven’t had a fringe since I was a teenager and my mum attempted to give me an emo fringe (it was a disaster). Before then, as a child I also had essentially what was a bowl haircut.

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This fringe however I think is a lot more successful. It was not though planned. I actually recently did a poll on my Instagram story about what I should do with my hair colour wise and the verdict from what I remember favoured pink hair. Unfortunately, because my hair was a mismatch of colours having something that covers it all was a better idea this time so I have kind of a copper-red hair thing going on (as I’m generally told that goes with my freckly skin).

I do think I’d like my hair lighter in the future but I’ll wait and see what is possible. If you follow my Instagram you’ll already see what my hair looks like but if you don’t it’s time for the big reveal…(minus the fact that I already revealed my hair in the main image for this post but suspend your belief, ha, ha).

April fringe

This is what it looks like with this new app my friend Callie told me about, which makes your photos look like an old polaroid complete with the 1998 date.

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Here’s what my hair looks like down (though I prefer it up in this hairstyle).

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Please ignore my oily hair it is hot!

So far the pro’s are that I think it makes my eyes stand out more and it looks super cute in space buns. The con’s are I’m still not sure if it suits me more than my old hair (I’ll insert a picture below for reference) and I think it looks nice with ‘fashion’ looks but think I’d want my hair different for ‘softer’ looks.

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More pictures of my new hair for reference:

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April fringe 3

April sunglasses

Let me know if you prefer my new hair or old hair below (genuinely interested, ha, ha as still not sure if I should keep it in the future)!

April (April is the Cruellest Month)

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A tribute to Carrie Fisher for Star Wars Day (May 4th)

‘I tell my younger friends that no matter how I go, I want it reported that I drowned in moonlight, strangled by my own bra.’

– Carrie Fisher, Wishful Drinking 

I wrote a post on my Facebook page when Carrie Fisher died about how much she meant to me, which I’ll copy down below (please excuse the grammar). When I watching The Last Jedi recently all those feelings came rushing back to me especially, since that film features some great women in Rey, Rose and Vice Admiral Holdo. Since today is Star Wars Day I wanted to reflect some more of those feelings on what the character of Princess Leia meant to me growing up.

‘I don’t usually comment on moments like this but this truly upset me. Carrie Fisher’s portrayal of Princess Leia was one of my role models growing up. As, I was a girl who loved Star Wars, when it was unusual where I lived for a girl to like Star Wars (which is weird to consider now considering that women are being put at the forefront of the Star Wars franchise).

It was through Star Wars I got my first glimpse of the elitism still inherent in geek culture though at a milder level. I remember sitting in assembly and a teacher of ours had dressed up as Princess Leia. But she was carrying a lightsaber. Almost immediately I heard one of my male friends comment on how she never had a lightsaber and so the costume was ‘wrong’. I laughed and agreed, wanting to fit in. I hadn’t got that far in my Star Wars journey yet, and didn’t want to be exposed for not knowing what he was talking about. I didn’t want to be called out as what would now be called a ‘fake’ geek girl.

Once I watched the films with Princess Leia in though I was hooked. Maybe, it was because she was featured in the only Star Wars merchandise that I could find that was particularly targeted to girls (I’m so happy though that toy market is beginning to get gender neutral). But I also loved the character of Princess Leia. She never backed down. She stood up for what she believed in. Much like Carrie Fisher. She may have been deemed as ‘outspoken’ at times, but she was always honest. Something I am trying more to be.

I will always remember the influence characters like Princess Leia had on me growing up and how she drove me to seek out other strong leading ladies. I honestly don’t think I would have gotten into shows like Buffy the Vampire Slayer without characters like Princess Leia existing.

And while we still have a long way to go with women leading franchises (for one thing it would nice to see some diversity); I think Carrie Fisher will be proud that she is one the ladies who led the way.’

When I was younger I wanted Princess Leia to be in more of the fight scenes. But as I’ve got older I’ve got over this and think its great how the films highlighted that leading a war effort is something women can do too. Also, we now have other characters in the Star Wars film canon that more than hold their own fight scene wise.

The infamous gold bikini also was something with I struggled with growing up. On the one hand I thought there is nothing wrong with being a sex symbol or desiring someone you perceived to be one. On the other hand, was this something that was empowering for Leia (maybe when she used it to strangle Jabba maybe) or Carrie Fisher? Carrie Fisher herself as discussed her relationship with the bikini and I think the one thing that has always stuck out to me is how this was not something she particularly wanted to wear. But it seemed to be another case of the Star Wars franchise at times not allowing Fisher agency.

It’s not the bikini that sticks in my mind when I think of Leia however it’s her blaster in hand or her bravely attempting to rescue Han Solo. Or her strangling Jabba the Hut. And that is all Carrie Fisher.

 

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However, if I had to chose between meeting Princess Leia or Carrie Fisher; I would have chose Carrie Fisher all the way. I recently read Wishful Drinking and I literally could not put it down. She talks about mental health in a way that I have rarely seen people do. She doesn’t dress it up or put ribbons on it – it sucks that her brain works in that way so she’s going to laugh and write about it wittingly because thinking about it too much just starts that spiral all over again.

‘If my life wasn’t funny it would just be true, and that is unacceptable.’

-Carrie Fisher, Wishful Drinking

Growing up as a child of Hollywood must have also been a surreal experience, she describes how as a child she thought the reality she saw on screen was real (in particular the TV show Father Knows Best) and her life was fake. Consequently, she struggled coping with reality her entire life.

‘I’m a product of Hollywood inbreeding. When two celebrities mate, something like me is the result.’

-Carrie Fisher, Wishful Drinking 

I think what I want to stress the most is that Carrie Fisher was an incredible writer that only now is starting to get the recognition she deserves. She’s been quite frankly treated awfully in her career – yes, I’m talking about the pounds she was told to shed for Star Wars to not having the rights to her cut of Star Wars merchandise.

It may seem like a strange measure to judge how much I am influenced by someone but I know that Carrie Fisher was high up there because she was someone I wanted to meet one day more than any other celebrity. In fact, I’ve never really had the desire to meet someone famous unless its on level playing field (i.e. if I was the director of a film they were starring in) because I don’t want to ruin the image I have of them in my head otherwise. But Carrie Fisher was always that exception.

So on Star Wars day I will always think of Princess Leia, the rebel General who stole my heart as I child and gave me hope I could be a leader too. And I’ll always remember Carrie Fisher, who was outspoken in a beautiful way I aspire to be and who I one day hope to be as quotable as.

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Ten pastel fashion instagram accounts to inspire you this summer

I’ll begin with a confession that not all of the people on this list wear exclusively pastel all of the time but all of them always look amazing (in my humble opinion) and the looks I will be featuring all will be including a pastel element. Summer may have come briefly and then dramatically left the United Kingdom (and now it feels extra cold and I don’t mind it but I’m now just constantly in fear and don’t know what to wear); but it still (apparently) is getting close to summertime so I wanted to showcase some summery looks.

  1. Noodlerella 

When the sun did hit I was feeling everything soft and pastel so Connie aka Noodlerella’s Instagram was a great source of inspiration. From her pink beret in the below picture (I have a strong obsession with all berets) to the soft sheer sleeved top (which, is another top trend I’m loving at the moment); I love everything about this look.

If you’re inspired by this look I’d suggest checking out this pink Hello Kitty x Asos beret, or this plain soft pink Asos option. If it’s something sheer and lilac that you’re after I suggest this Lazy Oaf basics lilac sheer turtleneck I’ve been coveting or this sold out H and M mesh blouse pale blue blouse (including only because it wasn’t sold out last time I checked so they may still have some in stores).

Skirt wise, I would recommend this Lazy Oaf Check Kilty Skirt option but it’s sold out (though they might have some instore if you can travel to London) though if you type in check tennis skirt into google you’ll probably be able to find a few great alternatives like this Yesstyle option. Vintage shops like Rokit in London are also a great place you could try and it’s better for the environment!

2. Pixielocks 

I’ll start by saying that I know the two below images are taken from her side account. Her main Instagram account is Pixielocks but I love these two beret looks so I had to post them. I also NEED to know where that lilac gingham dress(?) is from as that with the sheer white polka dot top is a LOOK. The two berets she is wearing are from Just Peachy who I actually mentioned in my last post. They are both sold out, however, the owner of the shop has just returned from Tokyo so I’m hoping they will come back in stock soon.

This filter is the only one that matters and I refuse to accept otherwise

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I especially love these looks because I like how Pixielocks has matched her eyeshadow with the beret in the first look. I think I could create a similar look with my Juvia’s Place palette (The Magic Palette) that I got as a gift from my friend Callie but you could also probably create something similar with the Love You So Mochi Eyeshadow palette (which, I need).

3. Pretty Pastel Please 

I have recently discovered this Instagram account from her Youtube channel and I obsessed with her great videos as well as all the style inspiration she provides. I particularly really love this Missguided number that is actually only £10 on the website right now. I keep looking it again and again but don’t think I’d be able to pull it off as well!

4. JasmineBlu

I don’t usually find someone who shares my first name so I get weirdly protective of my name when I do. However, her style is just so cute that I will forgive it (ha, ha). This April recently went to Tokyo and I was simultaneously living through her beautiful snaps and getting more and more enraged about how cute they were! She is also the owner of Just Peachy, which unfortunately for me means she’s definitely cooler than me.

ooh my gOSHHHH :o) I finally got to try the huge rainbow cotton candy !!!

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i’m a lil teapot ♡✧( ु•⌄• )

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5. Simply Kenna

Simply Kenna is another person I follow on Instagram that has recently visited Japan and consequently made me ridiculously jealous in the process. There was a lot of SCANDAL surrounding Kenna as a Youtuber a while ago (it’s not that hard to find through typing into YouTube). Honestly, I’m not sure where I stand on the situation. I follow Kenna for her style and aesthetic and have never followed her obsessively. I definitely think she didn’t behave well in the past but she has made comments that suggest she is growing recently and I think as long as she doesn’t make similar mistakes again and grows from the experience then that’s all we can hope for.

6. Emma Roberts

Ok, so this look isn’t pastel like at all (yes, I lied at the start). However, it is soft and chic and I love it. I’ve loved Emma Roberts style for a while, as she always manages to put little twists on classic ensembles that never fail to catch my eye. I will attempt to channel a bit of this the summer but I will probably end up coming out as a rainbow potato (which, is forever my aesthetic).

Girl tries to be cute with coffee. Girl spills coffee on new white dress.

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This is just a bonus look as I saw it and couldn’t not include it even though it doesn’t fit this post at all!

7. Kiera Please

I originally started following Kiera Please for her awesome casual cosplays and over time after seeing more and more of her posts I just get more and more upset over how beautiful she is. These three looks are relatively simply but there is something about her that just means anything she wears look awesome. I especially love the pink Barbie look and I’d recommend checking out Missguided’s Barbie Collection if you want to take inspiration from her look.

question of the day: is a hotdog a sandwich?

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8. Pretty Star Laura

Laura for me is the queen of prints and pastel. I love the way she mixes bold prints with pastel in a way I’ve not seen anyone else do quite in the same way. Her pink fluffy cotton pink hair is also to die for. Be sure to check out her Instagram if you own anything pastel and are not sure how to style it.

Why is it only 11am and I already need a nap?

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9. Studiomucci 

I very recently discovered this Instagram but I am already OBSESSED. All her outfits are pastel gold and I love how her eyeshadow always pops with her outfits – until recently I’ve always been a little afraid to wear the same colour eyeshadow exactly (or a very close shade) to my outfit but Amina looks ridiculously cute doing so.

10. Kawaiipeachqueen 

The below look is so cute I CAN’T EVEN SPEAK. Also, because I have the same bag I  I need to take inspiration from this outfit at some point but I don’t think I’d rock the scrunchies anywhere near as well. Since I also have the cardigan in the bottom picture I’ve basically decided we are now style twins (ha, ha).

🌸✨🍓かわいい🍓✨🌸 This summer is about accepting my curves and embracing body positivity. So with that I'm going to try a slight mixture of🌙Pastel🌙⭐️Fairy Kei⭐️ and ✨Harajuku✨ Fashion. The people that wear this type of fashion express confidence🍬I hope to show all curvy girls that you aren't limited clothing wise because of your size.🍙 Also that you don't have a limit to what you can love🍙(🍯Mine is Video games and Anime🍯)Also I'm just a beginner in the fashion don't shame me (● ˃̶͈̀ロ˂̶͈́)੭ꠥ⁾⁾ Plus I feel like a cute bee today 🐝✨🍯 ありがとうございます🌈 P.S. the pink skirt and sailor moon purse are from @spreepicky 🌟#spreepicky #dianapurse #sailormoonwallet #sailormoon #pastelprincess #honeybee #kawaii #fairykei #harajuku #sailormoondiana #buns #cute #cutenessoverload #pastelpink #curvygirl #kawaiiqueen #Lolita #weaboo

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So there we have it some of my favourite Instagram accounts to look at when I need a bit of style inspiration. I’d also recommend checking out Miley Cyrus’s Instagram who I wish I could have included here but wanted to keep this post to a relatively snappy ten, as well as Kelly Eden. Also, I am in LOVE with the new Converse x Miley Cyrus collection. I’m considering asking for the pair below for my birthday but can’t decide between them and two other pairs in the collection.

If you’ve got any more pastel fashion Instagram accounts or just general fashion Instagram accounts you think I should follow let me know in the comments below.

April (April is the Cruellest Month)

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April Favourites

April kind of started well for me and then crashed into a cliff this last week (apart from Martin’s birthday). However, I did spend a lot of coin this month (I blame the Youtuber Patricia Bright for that sentence) so I have quite a few favourites to share! Also, can we all be proud that I’m doing this video before April has ended instead of afterwards for once.

What I’ve been loving…

Cousins Collective pin display banner

Cousins Collective is a brand I got to know through watching the Youtuber Qcknd talk about them in a video where she was discussing her pins. I was excited to see that they were based in the UK (I can’t be dealing with import tax) and after realising that having my pins on a denim jacket was just resulting in a LOT of near misses (and actual misses) of my pins getting lost; I decided that I needed a new option for my pins.

So after doing a more of pondering I decided to take the plunge and bought Cousin Collective’s banner that is described as being able to display 50-70 pins. The one I got I would say is about the medium size for what the shop sells , s I wanted some space to add to my collection but not something that was so big my small collection would look ridiculous on it.

It took me forever to decide what colour string to get but I went with my gut in the end and chose pink!

Pin Board

Pins from left to right: Magical Maidens, Lulu Boo, Topshop pop up event, Lulu Boo, HMV (though I’m sure you can buy them elsewhere), Lulu Boo, HMV, Magical Maidens, Disneyland Paris (sold out online), HMV, Lulu Boo, HMV, Primark (x2), Magical Maidens, HMV, Lulu Boo, HMV, Primark (x2), exclusive from the Youtube store in London, Primark (x2) and pin from Dodie’s latest tour (now available online).

Star Wars lightside and darkside stickers

I originally saw these stickers on the Youtuber Simply Kenna’s Instagram story (she has now also mentioned them in a video I believe) and I knew I had to have them. She also mentioned that she wanted to put them in a frame as they are too beautiful to use. I think I am definitely going to take inspiration from her and do the same (though I have yet to find a frame that will fit the dimensions).

I definitely recommend you check out the artist’s Etsy Page, her handle is FloBallestraArt and she left a lovely handwritten thank you note in the package as well – it always feels great to support independent artists too!

Light side stickers

Dark side stickers

What I’ve been reading…

Sailor Moon manga vol.1-3

After stopping and starting a little bit with the Sailor Moon Crystal anime (I know I should probably start with the original but I’m too far in now to chop and change); I decided I would try and read the manga that started it all. Overall, this has been a great decision for me! I’ve been really enjoying seeing the differences between the manga and the anime and I find the manga engaging (a little slow at first but it picked up) and a great daydream read (what I mean by that is that it’s a great read for when you just want to loose yourself in a different universe). I’ve also been considering doing a review series of posts for the manga as I go through it – I know it’s hardly a new read for a lot of people but I think it might be interesting to review it as someone whose never read it and from a 2018 lens.

Sailor Moon volume 1

Sailor Moon vol 2

Sailor Moon volume 3

What I’ve been watching…

Masterchef (UK)

I have a strange obsession with cooking shows even thought I don’t eat like 90% of the dishes that contestants make but I still find it interesting to learn about different processes, which I can apply to meat free alternatives. The show also always inspires me to start cooking again more.

I was pleased to see this year that the vegetarian options for the round where they needed to provide one were definitely a bit more exciting than previous years.

This season also took an interesting turn in the media with the uproar that erupted over a contestant’s chicken rendang dish (I literally saw a double page spread on it in one newspaper).

The below GIF is not in the reaction to that by the way I just thought it was hilarious.

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Ru Paul’s Drag Race

I think when mentioning Drag Race it is important to note some of the more problematic areas of the show and recent comments from Ru Paul. However, I believe you can still enjoy certain elements of something and be able to criticise other parts of it (otherwise my list of things I enjoyed would be very small indeed).

However, I will say that this season so far has been brilliant with some hilarious moment from ‘Miss Vanjie’ to ‘Brown Cow’ (which had me laughing for about 5 minutes straight).

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Magical Girl Ore

If you’re looking for an anime that loves the magical girl genre but also relentlessly makes fun of it then this is the series for you. It’s quite frankly hilarious and the way it examines gender and sexuality is interesting to say the least. I would say it’s one of my favourite new anime’s on Crunchyroll at the moment.

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Food Wars 

Recently, I horrified some of my friends by showing them the first episode of this, making it harder for them to understand why I was so excited when I saw that the next series of this anime was out. If only partially because it has toned down with the Ecchi elements, which I’m not a fan of – I watch for the amazing cooking scenes. I have definitely eaten more than my fair show of noodles after getting way too hungry from this show. So far the new season is interesting, it’s a bit too early for me to have any concrete reactions but I like the development of Erina’s character which is currently taking place.

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Brad Mondo 

I recently discovered this Youtuber and professional hairdresser in my Youtube suggestions and I LOVE their reaction videos. I also want them to sit me down and give me their opinion on what I should do to my hair. My favourite part about his videos is that despite being an expert in the industry, he is never mean about the people who are making mistakes, he just uses their failures as a way to teach and always sympathises with the people in the videos he watches.

Simply Nailogical 

Although, I’ve never been that into painting my nails; I can’t stop watching Christine’s videos because she is HILARIOUS. I also like how she brings up serious topics in her videos as well, i.e. the ethicality behind companies like Wish. I definitely have a need for all things HOLO now.

What I’ve been wearing…

Sailor Moon Artemis bag 

I bought this after buying my friend the black Luna version for her birthday and then very quickly realising that I was going to need one as well. I got the Artemis bag because it was when the heat wave hit and I was definitely leaning towards white over black for accessories in that period. I actually bought this bag off Amazon and at first it was a bit of a saga. The first bag that I received was scuffed quite a bit at the bottom, wasn’t a brilliant white and the stitch detail on the moon was messed up (which, was the detail that upset me the most). If I’m being honest it looked like it had been used and then resold. I messaged the seller and they quickly sent me out a new bag however, which was a lot better so I can’t fault their customer service!

I also still have the first bag I received so if anyone wants it let me know, as I don’t need two! I’m considering seeing if I can DIY it and dye it black (though I have no knowledge of such things so this may not be possible). If you know about such things please give me some advice! Martin has suggested I turn it into a Hello Kitty bag which isn’t actually a bad idea…

Sailor Moon Artemis bag

So it turns out running late because I accidentally fell asleep ends in a surprising good outfit ✨

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Celebrating with sweets 🍭 for Martin and I’s three year anniversary 💕 (he’s camera shy).

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Killstar ‘Weird Girl’ dress

Although, a lot of people probably don’t think I’m a big fan of black after looking at this blog; I actually love mixing up my style and love any way I can incorporate Wednesday Addams into my everyday style. This dress that I picked up in the sale from Killstar is super comfy. I think it would be a little more flattering if it was a bit more true to size as my usual size (based on their sizing chart) was a bit too oversized on me. I also wish the sleeves were a tad bit longer. Overall, however I wear this all the time and I LOVE the collar on this dress – whenever I wear it reminds me how much I want Peter Pan collars to make a comeback.

Weird Girl dress

What I’ve been listening to…

Connie Glynn – Heartbreaker 

I’ve been a big fan of Connie Glynn aka the Youtuber Noodlerella for a long time now so I was very excited when I saw that she had come out with an original song. It’s super catchy, particularly the pre-chorus/ chorus (apologises if the below are wrong, just going on my own ears, as I couldn’t find the lyrics written down anywhere):

‘Hollow beating in my chest 

No, it’s nothing you can fix 

This heart is broken and its not going to mend 

It’s always the same 

But I’ll try again 

I rip the ribs apart and feast on the flesh

Back home to the waste 

And onto the next’

Despite, the song being a bit too electronic and produced for my personal tastes; the lyrics and the catchiness of the song keep me hooked. This is truly a great original little bop.

Ariana Grande – No Tears Left To Cry 

I think most people have probably heard this song by now. I’ve not actually listened to a lot of Ariana’s music in the past; despite admiring her powerhouse voice so when I heard she had a new single out I decided to give it a listen. The video is stunning even if it does make me feel a bit sea sick (ha, ha) and this is another song that I just can’t get out of my head.

I also like the low ponytail – sorry to any high ponytail worshippers out there!

Janelle Monáe – PYNK

I’ll admit I love this mostly for the aesthetic and the many layered nuances of the music video – I think everyone has seen and had an opinion on the vagina trousers by now so I won’t go into it but I think they’re genius.

I also would definitely be tapping my foot along if this came on at a party (if I ever go to any!).

If you haven’t yet, you also need to read her latest Rolling Stone interview.

April (April is the Cruellest Month)

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Hi everyone,

This is just a short and sweet post to let you know that I am in the process of setting up my Bloglovin’ account (please click the link above to follow me there). I noticed a few people were following me on the platform and that this blog wasn’t connected to the account I have on there so I thought it would be a good idea to actually link it! Now you’ll have the chance to follow me through Bloglovin or by email (check out the little button on my blog that says ‘Follow Blog via email’).

Also, don’t worry I still have a blog post coming tomorrow (spoiler alert, it may or may not be a post about my favourites for April).

For anyone new to this blog the main areas I post about are Fashion, Books, Cruelty Free makeup and Mental Health (and also quite a large smattering of anime, comics and general nerd topics). I’ve been blogging for over a year now so there’s lots of old posts to look through (or if you’re me bring over).

Style wise I would describe myself as an electric rainbow. I like things to be a weird mix of classic but different and something you’d never seen before. My style also tends to always gravitate to the 90s and I have a strong obsession with having a hat for almost every outfit. My favourite fashion brands are Lazy Oaf*, Irregular Choice, Monki and Topshop.

So it turns out running late because I accidentally fell asleep ends in a surprising good outfit ✨

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Book wise I like everything but at the moment have been reading a lot of YA (Young Adult) fiction. Maybe, because I’m convinced I’m ancient (I’m 22!) and I want to relieve my youth (ha, ha). I also currently am reading the Snotgirl and Papergirls comics and FINALLY reading the manga for Sailor Moon. I do also love to read books that address feminism or have overtones of feminism in them and I did start a series called my ‘Feminist Reading Journey’ that I need to pick back up.

Cruelty free wise I am far from perfect but I will always label to the best of my ability why I believe something to be cruelty free (with sources) and will mention if a product is vegan as well. Some of my go to picks at the moment are the Superdrug B Beauty range (can’t remember if this is entirely vegan but think it might be), Lush (always and forever), Urban Decay (cruelty free with some vegan products**), Too Faced (cruelty free with some vegan products) and Kat von D Beauty (cruelty free and vegan).

Mental health wise I am first of all far from being an authority but occasionally try to share my experiences if I feel they could help someone. I started writing about my mental health because I was constantly preaching that people shouldn’t be ashamed to speak up when I couldn’t myself (I am not however saying you have to share your issues with the world). For me, it has helped me to open up a bit more and process a lot of my thoughts, which is always a good thing.

So there is my little blog in a nutshell. If you want to see why it’s called April is the Cruellest Month then you need to go to my About page. Thank you for reading, all comments, suggestions and follows (*wink* *wink* are appreciated).

Also, follow my Instagram if you haven’t already and didn’t get my very unsubtle hints throughout this post.

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* For anyone wondering why I haven’t addressed Lazy Oaf’s recent controversy, I just want to say I can if this is something people are interested in. I personally didn’t want to stir things up as the situation is resolved and the artist is being compensated (I don’t think this however makes up for the alleged earlier treatment of the artist or the carelessness of the brand).

** Update: I originally labelled Urban Decay as cruelty free and vegan. It’s come to my attention that not all their products are vegan. I’m really sorry if this misinformed anyone. You can find all their vegan products here: https://www.urbandecay.co.uk/en_GB/what-s-new/vegan/?utm_source=BAU&utm_medium=email&utm_content=HeroCTA&utm_campaign=2018-May_VeganStory&dl_uiUser=091F38BC-3898-41CE-9B28-53B73783DEE9 

An ode to Polyvore

I feel like only a select community will actually remember what Polyvore was or actually used it but I have FEELINGS about it disappearing that I need to vent. Essentially, Polyvore was like Pinterest but instead of ‘pinning’ clothes you ‘clipped’ them and then you could move around clothes essentially on an interactive whiteboard to make outfits, which were called sets. Below are a few screenshots examples I managed to find, which I made for a blog post.

 

Most of my sets however weren’t live; I just liked using Polyvore as a place to keep record of all the clothes I liked and to check if something could be worn with several different outfits before I purchased it.

However, a while ago I noticed that the Polyvore clipper wasn’t working when I tried to save clothes. Basically, how it would work if that you go on a listing page for an item press the Polyvore button (which you download to your bookmarks bar) and then something would pop up saving the item. This though had not been working for a while. The app could be faulty however so for a while I assumed it was that. Eventually, one day I felt like putting a set together with the new ideas I had for spring/ summer.

To my horror I found that Polyvore had shut down and been replaced immediately with SSense which looked to be a online fashion retailer store. After a quick search I saw a lot of people were as upset as me that there hadn’t been any transition period or the old web domain kept open for people to use the app (which to be fair to SSense was more Polyvore’s responsibility).

I did at one point find a website that was hoping to start a new fan generated Polyvore, but I signed up and haven’t received an email since so don’t know what is happening with that. At the moment I’ve resorted to taking screenshots of clothes and putting them into a Pages (Mac program for those not familiar) document and using that to test what clothes go together.

If anyone knows any websites that are similar to Polyvore however please let me know,, as my document is quickly becoming cluttered.

For many this may seem like a bit of a rant of a post, for which I apologise but I used Polyvore for many years. I know because my username was based off the main character in The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo, as I made my account in the middle of reading the trilogy. For someone whose life revolves around what clothes I want to wear Polyvore was a way for me to sort out the mess in my head and have it a physical document to stop me obsessing as much.

So R.I.P. Polyvore, you will be missed by me at least.

April (April is the Cruellest Month)

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